Ten years ago Nate and I started dating, and started talking about adoption. Life has gone according to plan, except where it hasn’t. There are things so much better than I imagined and there have been losses that will never stop hurting. It’s so easy in the FB/online world to think people’s lives are picture perfect. And no one’s life is. But this is the only one I’m going to get so today I’m trying to learn to just let go of the past, hold on to the present, and breathe love into every minute.
I’m not good at that. I want to fix the past, observe the present and I don’t want to risk getting hurt by loving too much. But I’m trying. I really am.